gosh~ feel so tired recently. ever since school starts, i've been trying to wake up early and reach school on time.
1st week i manage to go school everyday. but i'm still late. my best timing for last week is still 15 mins later than 830. i reached at 845. -.- but at least i felt great gng school all week.
BUT... wad happen to 2nd wk?? is i think too much during the day or wad? i keep having long dreams that i can't wake up, just as if the dream is so exciting that i don wanna wake up! Mon is like tat, today oso like that, i can't skip anymore le.. today shld b photography, and i already skipped 5 times, so 2day is the 6th times. Oh My Tian.. better don't skip anymore le.. sigh~
ytd i came home, straight away slp le, too tired... i almost missed my stop too.. i slpt all e way, except having a phone call and tts it. e moment i got onto bus, i slpt. lols.
today got piano later. i nvr went lesson last sat, cuz i can't wake up.. so teacher was saying wanna play all 3 songs, omg.. i can't! my 1st piece de 3 page still cannot play smoothly and not even slow! only my 2nd and 3rd piece stil can make it..
prac a lil' aural just now, only singing can, i can't identify e chords, omg.. die. exam at sept. now is gng 2 july. july, august, sept! abt 2 mths only! and pp is also abt 2 mths! siao! argghhh!
1:05 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
today, father's day.
did anything??....nope..
hmmm. guilty.
but still wanna sae HAPPY FATHERS' DAY :)
alrite. nxt thing.
about less than 12 hrs later, lesson will start again. cant log into leo again... even webmail, pp, bla bla bla, cant access.
saw some of my grades, disappointed. should jiayou : /
bro at perth. gng to start flying w/o trainer i heard.. must jiayou wor.. noe u stress.. i noe u will do well :) pls don tink tt if u din do well (choy) then we will look down on you. pls don tink tt way, we're actually very proud of u already.. being a pilot is nt easy already. nt every1 can hav a dream or a chance to pilot a plane. u're e smartest in our family, we've always looked up to u. so pls b confident of urself aite? u can do it!
i tink i gonna slp early 2nite. after mum n dad leave home bah... hopefully abt 10 plus.. :)
8:35 PM
Saturday, June 14, 2008
gosh...
pls forgive wad i've did. forgive me for skipping lessons. forgive me for bitching others.
Thanks others who bitch about me.. Thanks all people..
i suddenly feel the urge to watch back 恶作剧二吻 de show. whenever i watch this show, 1st to think of is HANNAH HAN. hahas.
Have an urge is because i wanna give myself some laughter and walk myself thru finding happiness (: xiangqin is so silly and stupid, always will make me laugh de! LOLs. zhishu is always so cool, gives ppl an icy feel.
in this show, i always envy them a lot. the things they do, the life they lead, the love for each other... wad i like abt this show of xiangqin is that she act out wad and how a girl thinks when meet a cool guy like zhishu.
i watch till this part when zhishu is real busy, he was doing some research together wid prof for a lecture for his medical class. and xiangqin was nt happy b'cuz zhishu refuse to go to register xiangqin's name together with the family "jiang". so xiangqin anxious and wanted him to do it immediately, but he said "i'm busy". when that following nite, zhishu called her to say he mite not be home till late nite, so ask her to slp first, don wait for him.
xiangqin went thinking, "you really nt willing to be married with me izzit."
"saw him being teased by me, wearing a bride's gown during our wedding, i thot i succeeded, can be tgt with you forever."
"is this wad normally tv dramas show - i can get u, but cant get ur heart."
"is he avioding me?? or...."
"i should brace myself up..."
thn she said...
"two ppl in a relationship, always one of them will be more initaitive than the other."
in this case i totally agree with how xiangqin thinks. mayb guys will think " eh, why must you think so much?" or " why must you try to analyze how guy thinks?"
but cuz we think that we don't understand why is this happening thats y we always ask for assurance and explanation. we do ask alot of qn so as to make ourselves feel more secured.
we don want u to leave us. so sometimes this can turn to a strong feel of obsession. sth like " u're mine" or "i want u to belong to only me".
woman tends to find excuse for man in order to comfort her own insecure and disappointment. as long as this woman like this man, her mind will be full of him. cant hate him even thou he's doing or saying things that upset u.. sometimes woman will wonder, does this man really mean what he say?? y do man always afraid of commitments? woman will tink" am i that scary that u hav to aviod me?"
its like my mind is full of u, i cant do anything rite without u. i wanna let u noe how important u are to me... yet u're sort of avoiding me. i dunu ur answers. alll ur sms is so confusing,
is like u're saying u don want me anymore, u don need me. but y u wanna reply yes whn i ask if u like me?? u said tink too much oso no use, ya rite,
but i cant help myself from guessing since u don tell me! ppl always ask me, wa u can tahan if tis guy treats u like tt ar. i'm like, ya i'm tahan-ing. but not for long i will burst, y u wanna sae u feel good with me? y do u wanna sae u can 4get ur troubles whn u're with me? y do u wanna spend ur valentine with me... don u miss me at all? or u got another special fren other than me already?? do u noe i feel so insecure now? if i really meant sth 2 u,
wont i be e 1st person and only person who will keep recurring in ur mind?
